Impact is defined, “the action of one object coming forcibly into contact with another.”
I believe that people, things, moments and events come into contact with each and every human being throughout the course of this life. I also believe we all experience multiple forms of Impact… both big and small. I believe that Impact has a great effect on who we are, how we feel, and the way we choose to behave. Finally, I feel as though Impact can influence what we believe as well as the faith we choose to live with (or without) each and every day.
Ever since I was a little girl I have had a burning desire deep within my heart to help people. I have always wanted to make a difference and have some sort of lasting Impact (Sounds clique, I know, but seriously!). I took it upon myself to make this a personal goal of mine. Still until this very day I reflect back on the promise my mom helped me write in my very first diary. “I promise to always help others.” I never wanted to forget this goal of mine.
I will always believe in going out of my way to reach out to others; especially those in need. I have never found inconvenience as a valid excuse to not make time for others. Starting at a very young age this habit sort of became a routine for me. For those who know me best, they might call this my weakness.
However, I have always smiled at their comments and recognized the behavior as my own personal strength.
I recall a very special instance, all the way back in kindergarten, where I had the opportunity to be student of the week. With this responsibility came many privileges, such as choosing a friend to share the role of line leader with for the week. I had many close friends in my class, but I clearly remember one special boy’s name tugging on my heart that day.
Unlike me, he did not have very many friends. He was very shy and he struggled with school often. Even with my young innocence, I knew the chances were slim that anyone else in the class would choose him. I had discussed this young boy with my mom countless times before. She was who Impacted me to always follow my heart and do what I felt what right. With courage, I proudly called out his name not caring what anyone else thought or if any of my friends would be mad at me. My decision truly brought the most joy to my heart.
I remember thinking all day during school that I couldn’t wait to be home so that I could share this story with my mom. This was the behavior she always encouraged in our home. She explained to my brothers and I countless times while growing up to treat others the way we wanted to be treated.
My mom lived her life by this golden rule.
…Fast forward a decade and a half later: These past few years of my life have been a very difficult and tragic journey. It is one that I could have never imagined, not even in my worst of nightmare. I still find myself waking up feeling scared to realize this is really it.
I began facing this journey with my beautiful family almost five years ago. It breaks my heart to share with you that during this unexpected rollercoaster of a journey we lost my incredible mother at the end of April in 2013. Losing her has truly changed me; it has left me constantly feeling like a huge piece of me is missing.
The emptiness is so painful, even those words do not justify the feelings I have experienced. I often find it a struggle to remember who I was before this happened to my life.
While it has been extremely difficult for me to come to a place where I feel comfortable admitting these emotions, I feel it is necessary and important for me to be real with how this life changing experience has affected me. I know my strength to the outside world has likely shown a much different side; regardless I am ready to share how this experience has truly Impacted me.
And that is precisely why Hope of a Butterfly is now in existence today.
I have the strongest desire to inspire and support others to live a better life; which is the sole purpose of this blog. I hope to share my testimony and ways of coping that can ultimately encourage healing. Nothing would fulfill me more than to spend my time helping people who feel “trapped” within an emotional state of tragedy for whatever reason (death, addiction, anxiety, depression, etc). I want to help individuals step by step in finding the light within their own personal darkness.
I truly believe my life was meant to serve a certain purpose and it is my dream to share my testimony and heart with as many people possible. I want to give you hope in seeing the beauty that can transpire from the challenges and changes we experience in this sometimes very difficult life.
It is my dream to Impact YOU in ways that will allow you to have the faith it takes to overcome any journey that life may bring you.